Life Gets Crazy

So aside from writing another thing I enjoy is collecting quotes and theres this one that caught my attention today :

Aubrey Miller: Last summer, I, uh, I got to visit my uncle and his boyfriend in Madrid and one day I was just like, walking around and I got lost. And I, and I, my cellphone was dead and I had no idea where their apartment was and then, and then I was worried because I was, like, going to have to adapt to life as a street person in Madrid and finally, I like, wandered out into this plaza and I sat down by a fountain and I just, like, breathed. And I realized, I had been so focused on where I was going and, and getting back that I hadn't even noticed... where I was. And I hadn't noticed anything. And so I, I started to. I started to notice the... personality of the architecture and, like the, the way the people would just like, greet each other in the streets and even the sky looked... like, different over there. And it felt like I was just letting go of something... But also like finally in the world... And, you know, I eventually found my way back but those few hours, those were like the best, the best part of my trip. And I just, I wanna get back out there so bad. There's so much stuff I wanna see...

-The First Time 

It is quite a long one but the part that has more relevance with what I am writing today I have highlighted.

Lately I have been so distracted with everything that is going on.

It’s like I’m standing in the middle of the city road and all these cars are passing all around me, and that’s how life has been consuming me lately. I see everything that is happening but with recent events everything has just gotten so much that I couldn't even breath.

I felt like I needed to be accomplishing something big, like in the middle of all this craziness I needed to please everyone, have fun, do something so I can succeed out of it later

Get a job

pack for trips

go out with friends

check on school items

check to see if i’m up to date with everything

figure out a lot of personal situations

deal with family ups and downs

that I felt like I wasn't living my life that I wasn't ever going to be able to get out of this wild mess of a situation that was slowly becoming my everyday life

Until today when everything just got a little out of hand and I could literally hear my heart beating so loud because of all the anxiety with everything that when I saw this quote I dropped all the problems, drama, events and just took some time for myself.

Realizing that what I have accomplished so far, is pretty amazing.

What I have done today, was pretty productive

I just needed some time to sit down and realize what was happening around me while I was too busy worrying about the future and the past.

So I’m here saying that if you ever feel like your head is going to explode just sit down and appreciate what you have now, and notice the little things… Because everything will eventually fall into place and it doesn't all lie in your hands to be fixed.

xx