Goodbye 2015

Dear 2015,

Its been such a hectic year

letting go of 

obsessions

friends

bad habits

I started you with a crying heart and an upside down view of the world

I thought nothing could be fixed

Nothing would ever be the same

And nothing would ever be in my favour

This was the year that I turned 17, the year I’d always been anticipating

Although I thought it was a year to be worse than the last, all of a sudden it took a turn

Loneliness taught me 

independence 

new figures to find happiness in

and I learned more about myself than the last 16 years combined

That summer called for a summer in 

Paris

England

and Holland

I saw so much 

culture

art 

and love

However when I returned for a new year of something I had never foreseen growing up I had come with a new mind set;

 that I only needed myself and no one else.

2015 you taught me that I was wrong

That by shutting everyone out, by ignoring everyone I was only returning to that isolated place

To be teased with past memories 

Of what I had

What I’d lost

Instead I broke the walls of the shell that I had built all these years that had gotten more dense during that year,

I broke them and I realized although it is great to know my own worth and to put myself first,

us humans were made to love, 

to find love 

and to be loved.

whomever that be with.

So I took risks and made friends, friends that I now know its not about them staying with me forever, but about what I learn from the time I spend with them.

 2015 I thank you, for a year full of experiences

As you set,with an array of pink through the clouds, the moon peaking out of those clouds as if to say it is time for a new,

I hope

 that 2016 will be the year I put those experiences to use.

xx